Father's Heart Blog

After a long 9 months of waiting and helping and generally anticipating we were excited and relieved for our 4th child to be born! Another girl! Making it 3 to 1.

The waiting had not only been for the 9months because the waiting has been for the past 3 years.

2 miscarriages and a new house move had led to a 5 and a half year gap between our last child and this new baby. Read about the last here.

So we were so relieved and delighted when Zoe Esther Smallridge was born on April 13th weighing 8lb 9. She is a beautiful baby and has been a delight to her mum in getting feeding and sleeping well.

But if I’m honest Zoe almost wasn’t conceived. It took me some time to try again after the move. It became clear to me that my wife really wanted to have another baby and to not give up. But I resisted. I had begun to believe the lie that maybe it was for the best and maybe better to keep it at 3 for time and monies sake.

I’m currently so glad my mind changed even with the interrupted sleep and I know in 5, 10, 20, 30, 40 years time when I’m reflecting on my life. I will know that it was one of the best decisions we made.

But, how did I get to that decision? Well Mwaka my wife, stopped asking and started praying and one day last year during lock down while we were all stuck at home together, I looked around counted us all up and felt deep within there was someone missing. This feeling came again on another time and I knew I had to tell my wife let’s start trying!!

She was mighty happy and to her relief Zoe was conceived quickly and she went through the pregnancy really well with no complications.

We are so very great full for this life. And our eldest daughter came up with the name Zoe who has its meaning is life or God’s kind of life is so fitting. We are so glad we didn’t stop and really glad God spoke!